its complicated

been awhile since the last time i post about things i love about you. there're still so many things i love about you but gonna post it someday.
jadi gimana dgn hubungan kita yang "complicated"? sebenernya aku udah lama nunggu liburan akhir tahun ini soalnya aku pgn pergi jalan terus sama kamu. tapi ternyata aku harus isi liburan ini buat makin jauh dari kamu bukan makin deket. pernah ga kamu mikir gimana rasanya jadi aku skrg? what i should do right now is to SUPPORT YOU when you meet that girl, text that girl, help you forget her, and GIVE you time, WAIT you right here, while WISHING you to come back.
soooo lets see on the next 2 months. i meant on my sweet 17th birthday, will you come back or will you go with her? i miss the time when everyday i dont need to worry about you because youre completely mine.
but... here's what you say to me yesterday morning:
Dearr.. Tuhan sayang aku, dia kasih kamu ke aku. aku kadang jahat gitu sama kamu tuh bukan berarti aku mau bikin kamu sedih. kadang aku pengen kita jadi tambah baik gituloh. i miss our quality time together, i miss how we wipe each other's tears when we are sad. i miss our relationship where no mistake is to be made. i miss you because you are all mine. love you so much babe.

thank you ya babe at least aku bisa tenang skrg. love you :*

these are all  things i love about you. bold some of my faves :)
1. I love how you always make me smile and laugh

2. I love the way you inspire me.

4. I love how cute and adorable you can be

5. I love the kindness that you show

7. I love how you can always be there for me.

8. I love how you stand up for the things you believe in

9. I love how open-minded you are

10. I love your gentleness with me

12. I love how you take my breath away.

13. I love thinking about you

14. I love how sweet you make my dreams

15. I love hearing your laughter

16. I love it when you smile

17. I love you still when your angry

18. I love you still when your sad

19. I love you still when you're a mess (though you'll always be cool to me :P)

20. I love the way you feel

21. I love the way you hold my hand

22. I love the way you smell

23. I love gazing into your eyes

24. I love the sound of your sweet voice

25. I love how much you've taught me about life and myself

cont'd

26. I love how passionate you are
27. I love how you're so creative and artistic
28. I love the way you move and walk
29. I love the way you kiss me.
30. I love the fact that you fill me with butterflies each and every time
31. I love all the gifts you've given me and all the letters too
32. I love how you always bring out the best in me
33. I love your charm and charisma 
34. I cherish your devotion
35. I love your unique style
36. I love your outgoing nature
37. I love your honesty
38. I love how you accept me for who I am
39. I love the way you always encourage me to do my best
40. I love how you always seem to cheer me up whenever I'm blue.
41.I love your sense of humor 
43. I love the way my heart grows warm every time I see one of your pictures, 
44. I love the way  how my heart races uncontrollably every time we are online
45. I love the way my heart lights up every time I get a txt message from you
46.I love how patient you are with me
47. The way you always understand me.
48. I love how I can tell you anything
49. I love the warm fuzzy feelings I get from thinking of you
50. I love how tenderly you worry about me

fix you

When you try your best, but you don't succeed When you get what you want, but not what you need When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone, but it goes to waste Could it be worse? Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you And high up above or down below When you're too in love to let it go But if you never try you'll never know Just what you're worth Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you Tears stream down on your face When you lose something you cannot replace Tears stream down on your face And I... Tears stream down on your face I promise you that I will learn from mistakes. Tears stream down on your face And I... Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you

missyoumore

hellowww j, imissyoulikesoooooomuch. i hope youre doing fine. dont forget about your mission for us babe. i hope this 2 months can be over soon. cant wait to see you changed. memissyou *hug* you know how much i need you and i miss you. sekarang kamu cuek banget. aku harap abis 2 bulan ini selesai kamu jadi kaya dulu lagi :( aku kangen kamu yang dulu, yang selalu manjain aku tiap waktu. mungkin emang skrg kamu butuh waktu babe. i'll wait :') setia terus ya??

hey j, thank you so much for your decision. aku ga nyangka keputusan ini yang kamu pilih. 1 hari itu lama banget tanpa kamu. aku gatau gimana cara nya besok aku bangun tanpa kamu yang sekarang udah bukan milik aku. kamu gatau gimana rasanya aku sekarang. where are you when the sky is falling down? i miss you so much. i need your hug. i need you!!!!!!!!!! i need you to cheer me up. cuma kamu yg bisa hibur aku sekarang. please come back.......

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Lihatlah luka ini yang sakitnya abadi
Yang terbalut hangatnya bekas pelukmu
Aku tak akan lupa, tak akan pernah bisa
Tentang apa yang harus memisahkan kita

Saat ku tertatih tanpa kau di sini
Kau tetap ku nanti demi keyakinan ini

Jika memang dirimulah tulang rusukku
Kau akan kembali pada tubuh ini
Ku akan tua dan mati dalam pelukmu
Untukmu seluruh nafas ini

Kita telah lewati rasa yang telah mati
Bukan hal baru bila kau tinggalkan aku
Tanpa kita mencari jalan untuk kembali
Takdir cinta yang menuntunmu kembali padaku

Di saatku tertatih (saat ku tertatih)
Tanpa kau di sini (tanpa kau di sini)
Kau tetap ku nanti demi keyakinan ini

Jika memang kau terlahir hanya untukku
Bawalah hatiku dan lekas kembali
Ku nikmati rindu yang datang membunuhku
Untukmu seluruh nafas ini

Dan ini yang terakhir aku menyakitimu
Ini yang terakhir aku meninggalkanmu
Takkan ku sia-siakan hidupmu lagi

Ini yang terakhir dan ini yang terakhir
Takkan ku sia-siakan hidupmu lagi

Jika memang dirimulah tulang rusukku (terlahir untukku)
Kau akan kembali pada tubuh ini (bawa hatiku kembali)
Ku akan tua dan mati dalam pelukmu
Untukmu seluruh nafas ini

Jika memang kau terlahir hanya untukku
Bawalah hatiku dan lekas kembali
Ku nikmati rindu yang datang membunuhku
Untukmu seluruh nafas ini, untukmu seluruh nafas ini
Untukmu seluruh nafas ini